What panic disorder is, what it feels like from the inside, and what forty years of living with it taught me.
Not the clinical description. The actual experience — what happens in the body and mind in the first sixty seconds.
They are often used interchangeably. They are not the same thing.
ForthcomingThe condition is invisible by design — and that invisibility is part of what makes it so isolating.
ForthcomingReflections on forty years of emergency medicine — and what it means to care for patients in crisis while managing your own.
The counterintuitive relationship between high-stakes clinical work and the management of chronic anxiety.
ForthcomingThe culture of medicine discourages disclosure. I lived inside that culture for four decades.
ForthcomingA physician's perspective on a therapy he once dismissed and eventually needed.
ForthcomingRecovery from panic disorder is real and it happens. These essays explore what that looks like — through my own experience and the experiences of others.
Not a cure. Not the absence of anxiety. Something more durable and more honest than either.
ForthcomingWhat worked, what didn't, and what finally made the difference after forty years.
ForthcomingWriting this memoir was itself part of the recovery. I didn't expect that.
ForthcomingIf you have lived with panic disorder or agoraphobia and found your way through, your story matters. Submit it here and — with your permission — it may be published on this site to help others who are still in it.